Saying goodbye to the Bay Area after 13 years of living there was extremely tough for me. I thought it would be so easy to leave—but who would’ve thought that I would get so attached so easily?
Bay Area, ahhh, I had a love-hate relationship with that place. I love it cause I pretty much grew up in the EAST BAY, but hated it cause I did not get along with most of the people there. I felt like I always didn’t fit in. I made a ton of friends, which we all either fell or grew apart for many different reasons. Yes, I do have some people there that I know that I still love very much, but this will not stop me from pursuing my goals and dreams.
I’ve been planning on leaving to New York before I graduated college in San Francisco, but as things kept falling through, the plans of me moving kept delaying. People around me—acquaintances, friends, families—kept asking me, ‘when will you be leaving and if New York was still part of the plan in my life?’ I felt uncertainty in their tones (or maybe it was just me assuming,) but I didn’t want to have them think I didn’t want to keep my word. So I kept telling them, ‘yes, it is, and did not have an exact date’, but I wanted to make it happen. I… just didn’t know how or when…
Fashion, has always been something I’ve been truly fond of. Ever since I was a little girl, I’ve been flipping the pages of magazines my mom has bought, or my godmother has bought and given to me. I ripped out pages of beautiful models, clothes, accessories, interior designs and so much more for design inspirations, and placed them into my scrapbook. I went to college for fashion, to learn what I wanted to do, only to figure out I’m not entirely sure what is it in fashion that I really wanted to do. But, in order to pursue my interest in fashion, I wanted to make that great, big move, and move to New York. Because New York, it’s the fashion capital.
One day, I impulsively booked my ticket on the cheapest day, with no plan, no job lined up ahead, but using my fate to decide my destiny. I knew that if I bought my own ticket, I couldn’t go back. Everyone around me told me, you always have to have a plan, you have to make sure you’re okay and can be settled there. But I said to myself, fuck it. Why not give life a chance, and just got for it?
The thought of leaving to New York, never hit me, until I was sent off by my mom and best friends at the airport. Turning to my mom as I was about to walk to TSA, just suddenly hit me. Tears rolled down my eyes as I hugged my mom, and then turned to Brian, seeing him with watery, red eyes made me cry even more. Then, turning to Jeddy, having him tell me, “This isn’t you! Melinda does not cry! You got this!” I bursted into tears. What happened? I thought I was strong, I thought I could do this. Why the sudden tears? Is it the thought of not being able to go back? Or was the thought of not knowing what could happen freaking me out?
On the airplane to New York, sitting by the window seat, I was sniffling, then bursted into quiet tears again. I didn’t want the other passengers sitting next to me wonder, ‘why is she crying? What’s wrong with her? Is she okay?’ So I swallowed my tears and looked out the window. There’s a chance, there’s a new beginning for me. Life is unexpected, but I’m doing it. I’m making it happen.
Not knowing what could happen could be an adventurous wonder, but also a intimidating factor as well. I booked an Airbnb in Stuyvesant, Brooklyn area for a week to just to check things out, find an apartment and figure out where exactly in New York I really wanted to live at. My boyfriend, Elliott, booked a flight to New York a few days after I arrive in New York to help me out for 4 days, and I was so thankful that he was going to do so.
Although scared, but I’m so excited to start my new life in New York. Cheers to a new beginning, a new chapter in my life, and a successful journey for my future. Goodbye Bay Area, you’ve been good to me. I learned a lot from the years that I’ve lived there and I won’t forget any of the memories from me moving there in 2006, starting middle school there, going to high school, college and then finally working in San Francisco. It has been good. Thank you.