Like everyone has said, it's hard to realize something good until you really lost it.
I've been telling myself everyday last year, that 2018 was going to be the best year ever. Going to be making big moves and changes in my life, and really focusing on my fashion career. Who would've thought, by the end of January, on my birthday, that I would lose my PIC, my best friend that was there for me every single day of my life, always calling me before going to sleep, texting me good mornings every morning, coming over when there was a huge ass spider in my house while I was having the worst panic attack ever and trying to catch the spider but ended up just losing it cause it flew into another direction... That person that I thought I knew, but ended up becoming a stranger, a person that I feel like I barely even know now.
It really hurts to say, when you're trying to make a sacrifice in your career, you're pretty much just dropping everyone close to you. Even when I thought my PIC would be there for me, to support me and be my side, ends up leaving me as well because of our career differences, our choices, and our life decisions.
Who would've thought, it would end like this?
Cherish and appreciate everything you have around you, make sure you don't take things for granted, and also, say thank you.